SOUL-SEARCHING
Sometimes demanding the truth from someone would be like asking him to strip his clothes off and bare his private parts to you. It is not always easy to come out with the truth. Some people are not ready to tell the truth just because we are ready to hear them. Just as people are not always ready to forgive just because we are ready to be forgiven. The inability of the other person to tell the truth could be because he wants to spare your feelings; he’s afraid to give you not the things which he thinks you want to hear. Keeping mum to avoid trouble or hurt feelings. When someone cannot give you answers, it’s probably because he’s as confused as you are…he doesn’t know the answer.
Well, “Do you love me?” seems to be the sort of question that makes one search his soul to find the answer for. “Do you want me in your life?” is another soul-searching question that can lead one to the right direction he should be heading for.
We would all come up with an easy answer, and the right one at that, when we have answered the hardest question, “Who am I?” One way to study yourself is to look into the hearts of other people. Whereas, if you want to study other people, look into your own heart.
“Do you write?” Now, that’s a door-opener for my soul to pass through and bare my inner self…in public! In response to Mr Tony Bartolome’s invitation, here I am now — my heart and soul on the page.
Writing helps me get in touch with my inner self. I write and talk to myself on paper… in my journal. Thus, enabling me to know the person I am supposed to have the best relationship with — me! I don’t like much what I see but I’m discovering a lot more, and learning to love myself in the process.
We all need some soul-searching. If we know who we are, if we are honest with ourselves, it won’t be so hard to tell anybody the truth after all.
*Published in The Filipino Now International Magazine (January 2007 issue)
