When you gave me the ‘bullshit’ word you just signed your ‘death warrant’… you’ve ceased to exist in my eyes. Traces of you would be wiped off, vacuumed to dustmite-germ heaven. Some signs might still linger but it had surely undergone ‘disinfection’. Any attempt on your part to reach across my boundary would be considered another hostile invasion… you rise from the dust, you’d be avoided like the plague. 
Don’t you say anything about respect when you yourself doesn’t know how to respect other people’s feelings. You called my words ‘bullshit’ and me a ‘disappointment’. You came short of calling me a liar. You went further attacking the character of my colleagues. You went way too far… you have no damn right! Don’t you dare insult my people, you witch.
Sure, I understand why you feel hurt and disappointed with the way things had turned out. I apologized to high heavens and gave you the reason why the problem occurred — technical stuff. It was an honest mistake. Shit things happen, don’t you get it?! You said no apology will do, the damage had been done. What an unforgiving nasty bone you got?! Fine. You’ve shut down even after I mentioned a remedy. I let that passed. I let it pass when you left me (such apparent rudeness!) in the middle of my explanation. I gave you my word something would be done but, hey, I didn’t say it’d be NOW — when you most want it! The temper tantrums you’ve displayed gave me the creeps… a woman in her thirties in a whiny, bitchy, stompy-feet episode. You’re proud to say you’re a spoiled brat but, hey, don’t you go about marching on in the adult world with that kind of attitude. You’re alienating people. And no-nonsense-no-bullshit people are too busy to be bothered with a tantrum-throwing big girl. Nobody listens because you don’t listen to reason. Having a bruised feeling and wounded ego doesn’t give you an excuse to act the way you do.
Quit playing the victim role. Darn, it makes me puke! You’ve created a mountain out of a molehill. You imagine people using you. If it’s my/our intention to use, it should have been someone with a name — a star — not you. :-D The poor woman you accused of getting the credit you deserve wasn’t even aware of the error. She laughed hard when she heard of your insinuation. Believe me, that lady do things for the sheer fun of doing it, not expecting big time recognition or any darn superficial reward. She’s solid as a rock, contented in her nursing profession, and so secure in her self… somebody’s darn work is the very last thing she’d gladly claim as hers. In your dreams! That lady doesn’t need such to inflate her ego balloon the way you do… Snap out of it!
You love licking your own wounds, don’t expect anyone to lick it with you. I got tired appeasing your feelings. You drained me of so much energy. And hey, no sane soul would worship the ground you walk on when you’re throwing thorns on the way. This is the real world, princess. There are already thorns along the way… you’re just compounding it. Shape up! Don’t go hurling unsavory words at people you know very little or nothing about. You have a very strong sense of ego-self. I hope you can learn to see beyond your pain. The people you now think badly of are working their asses off, not sitting on their bums all day and all night; stroking somebody’s big ego is not on their list of top priorities — sorry to disappoint you, Miss wah. 
When I acknowledge somebody’s talent, all my senses are open. When I say you’re darn good, I really mean it. The sense of wonder in me makes me deeply appreciate somebody’s greatness. That greatness includes good attitude. You got an attitude all right — bad one, and a real BIG head too! You’re off my list. I desire not to associate myself with the likes of you. I’ve seen your true colors, I’m way much more gravely disappointed in you than you are in me… as sure as the sunrise! You blew it, li’l girl. You just burned your bridges. Walk away, don’t look back my way.
A lesson on human nature… your arrogance is an allergen. I am sneezing you out of my system… ahh-choo!!!
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October 17th, 2008 at 6:28 am
Sometimes as human beings we fail to comprehend the gravity of the damages we may cause due to our overwhelming frustrations and anger, until it’s too late, way too late that we reckon we have done something terribly wrong. And no amount of effort can ever undo the mistake or damages we inflicted to our fellow man.
It is often said that the words of man is like a double edge sword, because it can cut more deeply than any sword that was ever made.
Hope she will learn her lesson. You hold no moral obligation if ever she comes back to her senses (if ever she would). Life has its ways of teaching us if we fail to learn the lessons it offers. Believe me, it would be harsh.
Just continue to do what is always right as far as possible and nothing would go wrong on your part. You will always be guided…
October 22nd, 2008 at 4:22 am
such strong emotions, i can feel the hurt in each word. who is this person who dared hurt you that way? the JOY i know is slow to anger, for this reaction to surface it has to be so much! the power of words is so great, it can either make or break you. in anger one may utter things which she tends to regret later, if she doesn’t come to her senses soon enough then it’s her problem not yours! you have grown though, to be able to vent out your anger in an artistic and literary way! he he!